GO AHEAD AND MAKE MY DAY

2011-01-13T00:54:00.001+08:00

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

Let it be the last tonight(:

2011-01-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

The first monday of the year 2011.

School's kinda screwed cause of projects.

SE-RIOUS-LEEE, school never failed to make me fall asleep BIG TIME!

I was looking forward to the later part though.

was kinda sad last night cause i couldn't meet love as often anymore. AND I MEANT DAILY ROUTINES PROLLY TO ONCE IN 2 DAYS?!?! but oh well, i'll try to get used to it.

And i thought i couldn't get to see him today, but ya he gave that celebration a miss just to meet me. TOUCHED TO THE MAXIMUM, TO THE BRIM, TO THE EVERYTHING(:

Never fail to have our usual late night chats, ya and after saying how i felt the last few days, i was feeling better.

Love can't be measured.

So i've learnt no matter how much someone loves you or vice versa, there's no ending to the comparisons. As long as you know you've put in the effort, all else doesn't matter anymore.

Thats the assurance he gave.

And i had asked this stupid question which idk if its to entertain my wild thoughts for now, but i don't want him to leave me.

And to my dearest love,

i thank you for being mature enough to wake me up from all my nonsense and childish acts at times. Ya, i will still need you to be around to remind me constantly.

Although i know sometimes i couldn't fulfil what you've wanted as a good girlf. cause i'm stubborn, i thank you for compromising.

Ya, i can't be compared to them definitely.

But i'll show it in a different way to make you feel love.

2010-12-31T01:57:00.002+08:00

Last day of the year.

Bid farewell to 2010 and A BIG WELCOME for 2011.

Forward all good things and leave the bad memories in the past(:

So tmr will be as packed as ever at marina.

I'm going to do the yearly routine, FIREWORKS AWESOME!

but loveee is not going to be around to watch it with me:(

I guess i will be late to write all my resolutions, so i will just blog it in advance.

1. PRIORITY LIST-AKWL(: (Wo yao gen ni jie hun!) HAHAHA(:

2. A short getaway with him. (Our JB trip don't know when can really come true.)

3.Studio M Hotel!

4.Resist all my temptations(Although i've the feel to club, but i will try to control that feeling. Btw i'm shaking my head into the monitor screen now. Electro woah!)

5.Please let me pass my DIPLOMA(:

6. Let money fall on me. (Solve everything in the world already)

7.Can i be pretty?( THIS RESOLUTION AH, LIKE EVERY YEAR ALSO WISH ALSO DIDN'T COME TRUE!)

8.Singing lessons!

9.Peace everyone, everywhere!

10. I've found that special someone, so YEAHHH LAST LONG!

11. Please ah, the fats don't come and find me anymore. ( I don't want to acknowledge)

11 wishes for 2011.

My resolutions did came true before, sooooooooooooooo ya i hope this year it will be as fulfilling.

Dj Kzee's remix damn power, like a SE-RIOUS-LEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I'm like clubbing at home already(:

Alright, i'll be off to bed now.

2010-12-26T17:13:00.008+08:00

Yes baby, its been one month since we were tgt.

Although the time is short, everything is funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn and it seems as though we've been tgt for years cause you know me well enough for now(:

Christmas spent this year was more of heartwarming.
A SPECIAL DAY WITH MY UNIQUE ONE(:

Ok baby, i know you will not believe this but you have to.
I gave my virgin time of taking christmas lightings to YOU(:
thats why when you were asking me to pose there i was kinda paiseh. HAHAHA.

soooo, dont blame me ahhh!

AND THANKS FOR THE ANNI PRESENT AS WELL AS THE SUNFLOWER(:

I'm sorry if i didn't hold your hand well through the crowd.

i was feeling super horrendous cause of the mass crowd.

i hope you understand ya.

Gulliver's travels was an awesome show.

WITH YOU AGAIN, FIRST TIME AT GRAND CATHAY(:

its just that i didn't mention. cause i don't want to appear that i'm that suaku. HAHAHA

Sorry for spoiling your mood cause you've to take care of me when i'm not feeling well throughout the show.

Luckily i managed to pull through the whole show(:

And the night rider, its not a matter of saving money but to spend more time with you(:

ANOTHER FIRST TIME. woahhh you must be glad huh!

I gave so many first time(s) to you(:

HAHAHA, THIS POST IS FULL OF (:(:(:

i like i like!

FOREVER LOVE<3

Sorry for making you stay with me to sacrifice your sleeping time.

And its been two days since i last saw you.

i miss you a hell lot cannnn.

Faster meet me(: misses!

2010-12-24T10:46:00.002+08:00

Since i can't wish you on fb, this is the only platform i guess.

HAPPY FIRST MONTH<3

I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO EVERYTHING LATERRR.

And wish me luck in everything that i do today, and hopefully you'll be happy(:

2010-12-22T12:06:00.004+08:00

Please let everything be well today.

And that very strong sense of insecurity kept haunting me.

Just go away kayyyy!

I'm super not in the mood today and my eyes are still painful.

but i really do hope today will be a better day.

If only...

i would want to rebel but ya cause you are my mum.

and its like ya i know you've been through alot and all.

i thank you for that.

but have you spare a thought for us when we really did try our best to help and what we got back is your attitude.

i know i'm not suppose to rant about my mum here but i really don't know who else can stand all my naggings.

its not that we didn't help when you've requested know.

this is so idk la rubbish.

its just a super mixed and fcuked up feeling.

i dont like.

maybe or perhaps one day i should not even interfere or speak up for anything ok.

thats like the best for both sides.

ok, i'm glad that you've kinda accepted alr.

but kindly, if you are unhappy about something. speak up.

if you don't, i won't know and i would do even more

I wouldn't say i'm the best but i've tried right at least.

i do not have to do for others to see but only you have to feel it.

but did you even try? obviously not.

thanks ah, for all the scoldings ytd.

you know what, nothing's gonna stop me.

this is me. you know if this is a rebound, i'm going to do double.

seriously, don't try.

i'm not trying to condemn her here ya, its just idk who else i could say to already.

Thanks love for coming down ytd to accompany(:

*** ALL THESE ARE JUST RANTINGS, I DON'T MEAN ANYTHING.

I STILL LOVE HER, DON'T WORRY.

2010-12-21T14:14:00.002+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU LIKE RIGHT NAO NAO NAO!

FINALLY AFTER DONT KNOW HOW MANY HOURS, WO HEN XIANG NI.

HOW I WISH BUSES DOESN'T HAVE TO TAKE ROADS.

2010-12-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

No matter what it is, your love is everything(:

and ya i was kinda affected just now.

but really, i hope i could secure your heart and put it safely with me.

i dont care if i'm the right choice or not like what she had said, as long as we've tried thats all that matters right.

i don't really like the friendship that you are sharing with her, ya i've mentioned the term friendship.

but ya, girls dont think that way.

soooooooooo, zzz but nvm this is an exception.

apart from all those uneasy feelings, i'm kinda worried for her.

don't be too harsh on her alright.

yup, i've teared cause i'm down.

i tried to hold back my tears but i failed.

this is how much you've affected me.

ya you've onced said that i could only cry if you've left me.

sorry for being such a crybaby that all guys destest.

but i can't control anymore.

i'm insecure.

thanks for the assurance you've gave just now.

but don't worry, once again you've cheered me up and i'm a happy kid now!

i wish all the best in everything that is in stored for us in the future kay.

like what i've said, i cannot promise that i would be the best girl you ever had but i will try my best.

我愛的人, AKWL<3>

2010-12-20T00:36:00.003+08:00

PLEASE SMILE, YOU LOOK UGLY WHEN YOU POUT LIMQIANYU!

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2010-12-19T13:38:00.007+08:00

Thanks for everything, love

had a wonderful time with love last night.

guess its not as bad as i thought.

cause i alw stereotype couples will fight when they club together.

but i was totally wrong.

cause yes, sacrifices and compromises.

thanks

baby for being the first to experience it with me, lovesssssssssss!

although the starting was a little bad, but yup we managed to pull it through.

all in all, its just love die you. HAHAHA.

Thanks for the enlightening words after partying.

yeah, i will believe you are a very nice boy toooo.

so dont worry, no matter what we will go through those obstacles together if there is.

secret secret, you look damn cute when you're high.

i'm craving for burger king and love's coming to fetch me to eat it together with me(:

double happiness! HAHAHA.

2010-12-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

i want to be the one to leave you with no choice too.

Hahaha, i think i'm getting a little paranoid everytime your text came in.

ok, i'm just feeling that insecure but i know i must convince myself.

you won't and you will not(:

then again, i'm used to your existence every night

it seems quite lonely over here.

but yes, i want to help you save your money, so cannot cannot.

rmbr, its our promise.

nvm, i know i'm gonna see you tmr.

and also back to the place where we are gonna be<3

i'm sorry for the cancellation of plans tonight.

i'm sorry for being that indecisive

i dont want to make empty promises again like how i say i want to forget all at one go.

but i will try my best within my limits.

yes this is then the real me.

i love the times when we hanged out together.

Although the time is short, but i'm already so in love and looking forward to our meetups.

cause its you(:

one more week, baby!

i'm getting so excited.

2010-12-12T14:13:00.002+08:00

Baby i love you, i love you anyway.

Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you, no matter what

DEDICATED TO YOU, AKWL<3

i'm still struggling to memorise all my theories. zzz

studying session with loveee, and hopefully it will be productive.

HORHORHOR!

2010-12-11T20:30:00.001+08:00

Baby's coming over later<3

I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

excited die me(:

2010-12-10T11:54:00.005+08:00

太陽也許不知道自己多麼重要

I guess i've my day ruined all cause by myself. rahhh.

i will definitely choose what's best for you.

i know you would think it doesn't matter, cause we want to meet one another.

but i hope you understand the decision's all made for you.

although i wanted you to come, and i've tidied the house to welcome you in.

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.................................................

i want you to study well, play's for later on kay.

sorry for being that fickle minded and i always hate myself for being indecisive.

i need to hear it from you, i know i will be your distraction when you study too.

soooooooooooo, yeah jiayou and good luck for your study session today.

we will meet up as soon as we can kay.

i felt so paralyzed when im unable to help you in anything.

i wasn't feeling very well at heart to answer your questions

neither do i want to pretend that im happy.

i'm sorry to spoil your mood, but ya i just feel what i can do is very limited and i know its not that you don't want to meet me but you can't

i dont blame you, im just angry with myself.

thats why i dont feel like talking to remind myself.

i apologised.

just don't forget, everything i do i think for you.

cause i don't want to harm you.

for now, prioritise your studies first. its more important.

只有我才能将你的好坏
都拥有

I'm sorry.

i know i'm selfish for making you decide and get upset over that.

but i want you to do that, then i know you've already stood an important place in my heart to really make me shed that precious drop.

2010-12-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

i still remember when i confess to you with this song. HAHAHHA.

i'm sorry when i disappoint you at times.

i apologized when i'm not getting any sweeter, like what you said time is the remedy.

yup, i did try to get abit out of my life and is not very much affected already.

thanks for your everlasting patience and love.

Thanks for the times when you came down all the way to look for me.

i felt your sincerity, really(:

i'm looking forward to every night, cause thats when i can hug you that tightly and don't even mind even the whole world is staring.

And sorry for having that moment of jealousy, but thats cause i care.

but dont worry, after explaining to me.

i will understand.

ok, and i guess you fell asleep.

HAHHAHA, GOODNIGHT DARLING!

suddenly, i felt a thump in my heart.

its that super stress feeling and that unbearable pain.

cannot take it till i think im tearing again.

zzz, i shall sleep soon.

NIGHTS WORLD(:

IM A HAPPY KID!

2010-12-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

Caught harry potter the second time with family and love!

woahhh, i almost had a heart attack and my brains almost burst out of my head.

i was so afraid they can't get along.

but(: i guess it was a success, mummy didn't flare up(:(:

NEXT SHOW NEXT SHOW, narnia and rapunzel!

get the hint get the hint?

i can't wait manzxzx.

went out to get Vans with sis.

OMG, I SWEAR I LOST A KG AT LEAST. vivo is freaking hugeeeeeeeeeeeee!

and i gone crazy buying so many things at one go.

i'm so going to convince myself they are all worth buys.

meeting love later, excitedddddddddddddddddddddd!

somebody's sounding sexy, i like i like(:

take care of yourself kayyy

AND JIAYOU FOR YOUR ASSIGNMENTS.

i felt damn noob that i can't help:(

i'm sorry i'm bad

i'm sorry you're blue

i'm sorry for all the things i said to you

and i know i can't take it back.

i know you're still reading this space.

definitely there's someone better.

your chance, take it or you will regret.

don't wait for me already kay.

friends still(:

2010-12-03T00:17:00.003+08:00

I'm thankful that you've came all the way to make me feel better and to reassure me.

It really do helps alot.

thanks darling<3

sorry for troubling you to come down all the way.

AND YESSSS, IM FREAKING TOUCHED WHEN YOU SAY YOU WILL COME DOWN ALL THE WAY JUST TO MAKE ME HAPPY.

woahhhhh, i'm feeling like hahaha a g6. high high high!

loves!

more meetings to come, more times to appreciate and more memories to cherish

cause its just you(:

2010-12-02T20:28:00.004+08:00

Now, I don't want to lose you

but I don't want to use you

just to have somebody by my side.

And I don't want to hate you,

I don't want to take you

but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.

But like a fool I keep losing my place

and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.

There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

Now, I could never change you

I don't want to blame you.

Baby, you don't have to take the fall.

Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.

Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder

it makes me feel like rain.

And like a fool who will never see the truth,

I keep thinking something's gonna change.

And there's no way home

when it's late at night and you're all alone.

Are there things that you wanted to say?

And do you feel me beside you in your bed,

there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,

and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.

There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.

Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

i know it's kinda stupid for me to feel insecure at that moment of time. but that's what i'm feeling. am i loving too much?

its quite sad to realise that all the sweet nothings had come to nought.

I know we could make the finest things together but the truth is i guess i'm still a bit scared in believing.

i'm trying my hardest to forget everything bit by bit as promised.

i hope you could feel my sincerity.

although i could not afford to be your best, but i would try to.

what i've promised, i would abide.

but it's you that i'm worrying, are you getting a little tired of this already?

i really don't know, i really can't read your mind.

perhaps i can't get use to the distance that we are sharing.

but no matter what, i'll try.

DETERMINED!

2010-12-01T12:22:00.003+08:00

This time round no more reasons for me to stop myself from falling into anything.

And i thank you for coming into my life.

Although i know you wouldn't be reading this space, but ya im using 0.01% of my luck.

That very saturday, it was a blast.

the day when i got to know you, your smile omg totally melt my heart.

but oh well, i pretended to be normal.

and ya, such a sweet for acting with me, BIG THANK YOU.

And on tuesday, my only intention was to surprise you.

but i failed, never mind its the sincerity that counts right.

i was having fun when there's you around.

you being that monkey when you're so damn high. HAHAHA. joke only.

but ya, love that moment.

the closeness that we share.

the ending was kinda screwed.

wanted to go home with you and all, but ya in the end all seperate ways:(

and we started our textng routines and late meet outs.

awesome, and though you thought we couldn't be possible.

thanks for putting that faith in me. we can pull it through.

now, i guess i'm like the most fortunate woman on earth cause there's you(:

i've never regretted my choice.

no more reasons to be sad anymore.

thanks for your patience.

thanks for your everlasting love.

thanks for your advices.

thanks for your trust and faith in me.

all these are enough to last my happiness for a lifetime.

millions of thanks.

24th nov'10 <3

thanks love for making everything happen.

i can't forget that very first peck that you gave that cause my heart to pound like crazy(:

thanks darling(:

and i promise, i will do a record for you on this song.

2010-11-08T01:49:00.004+08:00

There're alot of things going through my mind recently.

i know i contradict my thoughts, i really dont know what i want.

and its not that i dont want to talk about it.

its like, nobody can ever understand and stand in my shoes to think for me.

i guess i'm the only one who can resolve all of this.

i started this mess, i've to clear it.

If you like her, just go for it.

From the bottom of my heart, i sincerely wish you all the best.

I know, what's the point of saying this when i know idon't want to give all of these up.

Its as simple, cause i love you.

All these times, i thought i had already forgotten about everything and start anew as friends.

I guess i did not, the feelings remained.

It never had go away, and i thought i start to fall for you again.

Said much, i guess you know what i'm trying to say.

Only you can give that sense of security.

I've made up my mind already, no more fooling around.

I'll try my best to make every single thing happen.

For you, i will.

If we were together, it would have been the second year we would be celebrating.

but ya, it all ended in a year.

i hope everything would just return back to me.

I don't even know if you would want this back.

i want nothing else already, really.

after having 10 months of fun, and i'm back to the starting point.

i had not moved on at all.

you're the only one who would not throw me aside.

2010-10-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

I'm like cooped up at home for the IDK how many days.

i dont know how long can i carry on like this for.

please, stop the air from going into my passageway.

choking my throat non stop, rahhhh!

this is so annoying, everyday i've to wait patiently for your reply.

i only got myself to blame for the sickness to come the same time as your free time.

i dont care im so going to go out with you when im well.

you're having the 2nd day of camp.

DAMN, I HOPE IT WILL BE OVER LIKE NAOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

ok im going to endure like how i did for the 11 days when you're not around.

this few days have been terrible i swear.

time for retail therapy with girlf.s

now im going to update myself with songssss.

I SHALL BLOG AGAIN WHEN IM A HAPPY KID(:

i doubt it will be soon.

2010-09-28T02:35:00.002+08:00

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

So that someone special in my life doesn't exist anymore
i swear im a fool in this love game.
i dare not take up any risk again
and all along, when i know that i shouldnt put in any feelings i still did.
idk why but yes it feels like im hallucinating myself.
what the hell is wrong with me.
i shouldn't even have such an improper feeling towards someone whom i've known for less than 2 months or so and to even put in any special feelings for someone that i would not imagine i will fall for.
but whatever, if its gone its gone.
i wouldnt force either of us, let it stay this way.
dont come into my life anymore, i've kinda regretted.

and J is going on a holiday for freakingggggg 11 days.
ok it seems short but ya to me its a super long time frame can.
but im glad that you still text me when you're there(:
i await for your arrival!8 more days.
check out your fb manzxzxzx(:

this year's birthday is not awesome
in the end, i still cried.
its not that its not well-planned.
but the scars will forever be there.
i still remember last year on this very day.
and i cant believe im still quite bothered over it.
!!!
I NEED TO GET A LIFE SERIOUSLY.

life's boring, life's screwed.
ive nothing to blog about.
im determined, i need to lose some weight already before J comes back!

2010-09-17T04:21:00.002+08:00

To: someone special

i dont think you will ever get to see this but yes i just want to blog whatever that had happened since we met.

i'm super grateful that i went for supafly that very night on sat.
starting off by asking who are you and such.
yesss, and things started off like this.
talking to you even on the phone only makes me feel happy.
idk if im a fool by saying all of this. but yes, it really did.
every text that pops out, i always hope that its from you(:

we started meeting each other on that very podium where we first met
Dancing together and yeah in our eyes its only US that exist.
My favourite dance from you: One Love.
goodness you were great, baby(:
whenever im there, i always see you.
cause you are always worried for my safety.
thanks darling, i really appreciate it.

and last night, when it all happens.
i still remembered the previous night of you asking me to stop all the affections i have.
but you know i just couldn't.
its just about you, but ya i know you just can't forget her.
oh well, i will still persist till i see no light

i'm really not someone who would play another's feelings.
i treat heart matters very seriously but you just couldnt believe me.
im kinda tired to keep repeating my words to just assuring you.
i need my own assurance as well, have some confidence in me?
and im sorry for talking to you in a very bad tone over the receiver's just now.
idk what has gone into me.
but yesss, im still feeling bad about it.
you know it meant so much to me when you start to ignore me.
i dont like it really.

till this day, i hope i wouldnt regret the choice that i've made.
im really sorry if ive did anything to make you angry.

2010-08-03T13:32:00.001+08:00

Don't say i'm wasting my life just like that.
you know its you that caused all these.
why do you even want to lie in the first place.
there's no such things as your feelings are coming back just a little or a whole lot.
its either a yes or a no,.
i should not even take the first step to talk to you again.
i kinda regret, but what to do.
my feelings did return, but im not going to do anything about it alr.
i am alw taking initiative, tired alr.
what a lousy excuse by saying you want to see how much i love.
you should know me, if i love i do it all the way.

i guess you still do not know me well.
tonight will be the last already i sear.
i always did my best in anything for you.
but in the end im taken for granted treated like an idiot.
you like it but i dont ok.
shut up and let me go.

2010-07-21T15:12:00.002+08:00

I guess its freaking long since i've last blogged.
And everytime when i do, its all going to be something bad.
Life's like this.

Just when i want to treat everything right and like my best, i always got cheated.
tell me about it.
is it that hard just to treat someone right and to love.
i'm getting damn demoralised.
you make me want to play back on you only.
there's no such things as i'm just like that.
everything happens for a reason please.

When i am needed, you come to me.
whispering all those sweetnothings to me, sorry i dont take that.
i've been through it.
Do you think that you can actually escape from reality that if you could think about cheating on me i had thought about that also?
its like omg child's play.
speaking of you being mature, i guess you are the one that needs to be taught a lesson.
Girls are not your toys and let alone your partners on bed just cause you miss that intimacy with the opposite sex.

You've mentioned that we are more than friends but its just that we need to spend more time to proceed to the next stage.
i don't even think time is a factor.
it is just how you treat your heart matters.
you dont even take me seriously.
you will get your retribution, seriously!

And i think i'm getting worser, but i just want to fight for my own rights.
i thought of revenge.
how sweet, to even think of a way to deal with this kind of people.
i want you out of my life but im not going to lose to you.
i want you to be the bad guy.
i want you to be the first to say that you dont want to be in contact.
i want you to feel guilty.
i want you to know that girls don't just revolve around your fingers and just manipulate like you wish.
B UT I JUST CAN'T BRING MYSELF TO DO THAT!
yes i admit im such a loser when it comes to this.
me being cheated? come on, no one would believe it.

I always hold on to that very last hope that you would change.
not for me, at least for yourself or your ex girlf.
but i guess i failed big time.
i've tried ways and means to make you feel touched like how you did from the start, but it died off after i took over from your place.
Isn't that so?
i hope whatever i said prick your conscience.
i'm feeling very bad on the inside.
i dont want to face you everyday with a fake smile.

When im out with you, i felt just not right.
you make sacarstic comments to whatever i've said.
i took that in stride.
i guess you do not know, i'm just one ordinary girl.
i can't make wonders and just satsify what you want.
i have my limits too AND YES IM A GIRL YOU KNOW.

have i not been taught a lesson yet from the previous one?
just a bet from the friend just to get me and shake me off.
tell me, really. get a life.
all of you jerks, your faces irk me.

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long

Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry

I really don't know how and what should i believe in anymore.

2010-06-07T12:14:00.003+08:00

Why must everything end this way.
Just when i found the determination to do everything, i lost it all over again.
Let's just admit it, we can't just let go.
or rather we don't want to.

亲爱的为什么你还不敢承认呢
亲爱的我们都是脆弱的人
亲爱的别牵着没感觉的手
真的不怪你我太爱你才说不出口
亲爱的我也不相信心会疲倦的
亲爱的我们别再骗自己了
亲爱的听时间的话放开手

stupid blogger. i can't seem to copy and paste:(
anddd im heading to school now.
rahhh, i felt quite stupid blogging now.
but yess, this song is freaking nice and thats why i insist to put it up.

LET'S ALL LOOK FORWARD TO WED.
PARTYYYY TIME.
PHPHPHPHPHPPHPHPHPH.
and i hope i see L there(:

2010-06-02T11:57:00.002+08:00

so much for not blogging for such a long time.
and i know there are still quite a few loyal readers around(:

OMG, IM FREAKING STRESS.
AHHHHHH, CAN SOMEONE LIKE HELP ME SERIOUSLY.
AND TODAY'S NAPFA.
TELL ME ABOUT IT.
SHOULD I GO TODAY NOT?

TANNING ON THE 14TH WITH DEAREST XINNNN.
excited!
ok i lost my vibe of blogging.

all these are rubbish.
thanks so much for reading all the way up till here.

2010-04-10T02:29:00.002+08:00

I don't know what i'm thinking
I just got out from one and now getting into it again.
can someone like help me.
i know i've to give up, be strong all.
i know there aren't any words to help.
but its just the heart thats telling you that you can't give up.
probably it had really been too fast.
this one month might be short but i guess i can consider it to be one of the best beautiful memory in life.
and it ended all just like that.
i know i have to take responsibility of what i've said.
even if its out of rashness, i did it.
everything can't be change and even time was to turn back, i would do the same thing.
i know its plain stupid and all but it really shows how much disappointment you caused me.
and all those promises are they in vain?
i'm hurt really.

and cause i didn't kept in touch with you, it doesn't mean that im not bothered with you.
but its just me not wanting you to get frustrated over me.
i hope you understand.
if there's one day, i'm really willing to try.

2010-04-01T17:48:00.004+08:00

It had only been a week and all these are like coming to an end.
come on man, i mean who doesn't want to be sweet and all when its honeymoon right.
but i really got camp.
yes i guess i didnt spend enough time with you.
your feelings faded a little, you know how hurt am i.
and all those efforts that i put in to show that im serious, all those like for nothing.
tell me about it.
and when we talked on the phone, we have very little things to say about
when we text, its all about random stuffs.
yeah, normal friends.
and we cannot talk online either, we lack of alot of communication.
yes, you freaking made me damn sad alright.
i didnt want this either.
why must all this be like that.
everytime when i tried to put my all and my best, in the end i am the one that got the biggest impact.
I HATE THIS.
I HATE THE WORLD.
I HATE MYSELF.
so what are we now?
i really don't know.

I DONT KNOW WHAT GUYS WANT
DAMN TROUBLESOME.

2010-03-27T20:53:00.002+08:00

I'm like so alone at home on saturday night.
online-ing my ass off.
SOMEHOW I MISS WORK:(
yuppie, and then he's having steamboat dinner tonight.
oh man, so tempting.
i also want ok, hinthint! HAHAHHA
fix your lappie soon yo.
i miss talking to you online, really.
ahhhhhhhhhh, and we've been texting quite little alr.
but its alright, we get to meetup anw, good good!
YES, IM LIKE AT THE HAPPIEST MOMENT OF LIFE NOW.
I HOPE NOTHING WILL HAPPEN, REALLY.
LET IT LASTTTTTTTTT PLS.

YES I WANT, AND THAT IS A STRAIGHT CUT ANSWER.
25TH MARCH, I LOVE.

2010-03-24T12:08:00.001+08:00

And i hope everything is going on well fine,
although its a little tough but i know you can do it.

I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOU OK!
and you are not awake.
i dont even know what im blogging about.
HAHHAHAHA.
yeap. and im freaking lobster cannnn.
like seriously.

ok this is a freaking random post.
and i dont even know what im talking about.
excited about tonight!

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you lovelies.

2010-03-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

So many times of coming over to my place without any complaints.
I'm touched, really.
so today im going to have a change.
picking him up from work.
but the thing is: i don't even know where national muesuem is.
OMG, AND YES IM A STREET IDIOT.
adds to that, i dont know how am i supposed to give a surprise without leaking it out.
And i've to like get out of the house soon,
or not i will be really late.
(:

Life is a maze and love is a riddle.

And for you, i really would try my best even if it takes the longest time.
i hope you would wait.
Thanks love.

2010-03-18T11:21:00.003+08:00

Some people just don't know where they stand really.
i'm freaking pissed and not cause i felt that you are petty.
you are a total bitch seriously.
i dont care if you see this.
im like that, damn straightforward.
if you want to fight with me, just get lost. cause im not interested in you afterall.
who are you, just some small peanut fighting over idk what.
hey pls, you can't travel back 1 yr ago to destroy the memories ok.
i bet he's your first.
if you are going to be that possessive, my god idk how are you going to last with him.
so what if im in the position to say anything.
not my lover, but my friend.
youuuuuuuuu, YOU MAKE ME LOOK DOWN ON YOU ONLY.
whatever, i can't be bothered.
its cause you are either jealous or you have no confidence yourself.

OK, ENOUGH OF THE SCOLDINGS BUT SOMEHOW I REALLY HOPE YOU SEE THIS.
DONT WORRY LA, IM NOT GOING TO SNATCH FROM YOU.
YOU CAN HAVE HIM ALL BY YOURSELF OK.

yeah man, i liked what you said.
and im going to prove that i can.
really, cause.... SECRET.
"i'll wait for you k. don't care how long. i'll hold you till the hurt is gone."
this will be my motivation from now on.
(:

2010-03-17T01:43:00.002+08:00

I wanted to text you but i have to control myself.
there's no more messenger history, so i dont have to bother myself for reading so much.

so anw, i was feeling all damn down.
i was making a casual remark and he really came down all the way.
my god, such a sweet.
thanks for the comfort and shoulder, it helps alot.
ok i guess everything went well.
AND A SECRET BETWEEN US TOO.

i am trying my very best to forget within that deadline.
from there, i think i can really move on.
i believe that true love still exist no matter what.

i've blogged so cheers!

2010-03-15T18:58:00.002+08:00

I'm back to blogging and i hope this time round i'm consistent.

I GAVE IT ALL UP BUT I'M TAKING BACK MY LOVE.
TOO MUCH THINGS HAPPEN ALL AT A SUDDEN.
I FELT LOST, REALLY.
SO I GUESS THAT BREAKDOWN WAS NOT FOR SYMPATHY BUT REALLY I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I KNOW I'VE BEEN PREACHING ON THE SAME SUBJECT FOR DONT KNOW HOW MANY MILLION YRS ALTHOUGH I KEPT SAYING I WANTED TO STOP AND ALL.
THIS TIME ROUND I PROMISE. ITS THE LAST.
I'VE ALW BEEN NOT HONEST ABOUT MY OWN FEELINGS.
ITS NOT THAT I WANT TO HIDE IT FROM YOU BUT JUST I THINK IT DOESN'NT MAKE A DIFFERENCE CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DONT WANT TO GET BACK.

and the 4 months after we broke up, its like...
i dont know how to describe.
we've been holding on and i kept trying to shun you.
ok, and it really works cause you got a girlf. yourself.
i thought it was goood but who know i really burst out crying.
at that moment of time, i really felt that there's nobody in this world who wants me anymore.
but i guess, i was wrong.
i should let you go, i cannot be that selfish.
i'm just too used to your existence and now with another person ok i guess you are happier?
i hope you would really cherish her more than ever.
cause thats the best repay i get.
actually i can tell you, i'm not really happy that you had found your another half cause the past 3 months after we broke up you kept coming back for me.
idk your feelings are which.
its like, ok contradicting.
BUT WHATEVER, ALL THE BEST.

and thanks to you, i guess i felt better after you moving on.
so i can open to another relationship.
i always felt sorry towards you.
there's another person in mind.
(:

i hope i really can forget everything fully.
you know one of us has to be sacrificed.
since you've chosen to love her, ya i should give up hope too.
i sincerely wish you would last long with her.
good luck.

2010-02-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

And what about the sarcifices that you've mentioned compared to mine.
if everyone just treat first impression as the best, equals to they are blinded by everything
and afterall its just a cover.
who knows if its real.
i might not be the best but i know i treat you unconditionally
and better still, i treat you nicer than myself.
and now, i don't want to get back.
why must you force me.
so what if the feelings are still there.
but how can i go back to someone who hurt me so much till im immune to how he's treating me.
thats really bad you know.
and when i say i will take greater advantage of you, you've complained.
i guess you've not prepared to love selflessly
im trying to pick myself up
i wanted to get back too.
but i just cant do it.
im sorry
i guess i will take a very long time for me to be who i really want to be.
i hate my life now, seriously
let me tell you this, even if how much you've ever wanted to repent and make up to the mistakes you've committed last time, i guess it doesnt make a difference.
cause i dont feel for anything you are doing now
and you are changing just for the sake of me saying it.
so isnt that just lying to yourself as well as me.
we dont want that,
we want to move on with life.
even if in the future there's no more us, we will still be the closest friends ever.
trust me, we can work this out
but i guess there's no turning back for this alr.
i dont know how to tell you, so i blog here.
hopefully you will see it one day.

however, if you are still holding on to that impossible dream.
i guess you can only give up.
wish you all the best.
the best way to repay me is to love your next half well.
i will then not regret.
i thank you for your love, not forgetting your care.
and yes, thanks for that 1 year plus
its been wonderful.
thats all that i want to say.
dont ask me anything or lecture me anything about this anymore.
just read this, i guess this will clear all your doubts.

2010-02-13T08:45:00.004+08:00

I'm quite lazy to blog anyway.

AND THIS YR VALENTINE'S I'M REAKING NOT GOING OUT WITH ANYBODY OK
YOU HAPPY NOW!
I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU.
FREAKING ASSUME THAT IM SOME LOOSE WOMAN OUTSIDE
GO AND THINK WHAT YOU WANT
IM FINE BEING ALONE LAAAAA.
GO AWAY YOU PEST.
AND EVERYTIME WHEN I SEE YOU, I WILL CRY.
I GUESS ITS SOME CURSE OR STH.
DAMN IT LA, IM FREAKING ANGRY.
PLUS THE MOODSWINGS AND EVERYONE ARD ME THAT......................
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, IM CRAZY OK SERIOUSLY!

I THINK THIS IS THE FIRST TIME AFTER SO LONG,
I BLOGGED IN THE MOST CHEENA WAY WITH THE DOTS.
DISGUSTING BUT I DONT CARE
CAUSE IM PISSED

2010-02-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

I know you need assurance,

sometimes people just don't know what you are going through
don't assume.
and then i'm kind of tired already.
cannnnnnnnnnn someone like date me to barrage?
i need some space.
freaking stress up by everything/

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-01-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

so i guess i've made a beautiful mistake in my life
and that is to move on with our life without one another.
and i hope you are doing well.
of course, find a hot girl and we shall go couple dates next time(:

ANYING FLEW OFF TODAY.
I MANAGE TO SEE HER FOR THE LAST HALF AN HOUR BEFORE SHE WENT OFF.
I HOPE SHE LIKES WHAT I GIVE, AND YES IM WAITING FOR YOU TO BE BACK!
AND APPARENTLY SHE HAVE NOT TEXT ME IF SHE REACH THERE ALR NOT
BUT I GUESS SO.
BY ANY CHANCE, IF YOU SEE THIS DARLING. I HOPE YOU WILL BE WELL AND TALE CARE OF YOURSELF.
IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE TRIP IN MARCH(((:

and i'm having a throat infection now which means i am forced to talk softer.
plus point right to be more gentle.
he's cooking liangteh for me, omg damn sweet can. HAHHAHA
i feel so loved.

sissy's birthday today(:
i wish that everything will go well for her throughout this yr.

its been years since i last blog i guess.
and somethings are better to be left unsaid
i dont wish to explain any further
cause ultimately it will still be my fault
i dont know why.
but life is just a funny thing and freaking hell, it has alw been a bitch to me.

2010-01-24T15:51:00.003+08:00

I've lost to my determination and love.
no use thinking so much
cause at the very end, the one getting hurt is me.
There will no longer be people who tries to understand.
all they think is for themselves, good job really

不能握的手
从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着
依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手
却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

2010-01-05T03:11:00.003+08:00

It is not that i don't cherish
But its just that i have to stop caring from this minute onwards.
What are the quarrels for.
Initially, i thought i really could forget.
Why do my side effects always kicking so late.
and it happens when i'm all alone here coop up in the room.
i dont know if you are trying to get me jealous or whatsoever
deep down in my heart, you know the answer for everything.
you understand me too well
i need to forget.
please help me.
dont come into my life anymore.
i dont want to see you again
i need to avoid. thats the best excuse that i can give.
cause without contacting you at all, i guess i can really let go of everything.
THANKS FOR SCOLDING ME AND WAKING MY SENSES.
IM REALLY THAT IGNORANT BITCH THAT YOU'VE MENTIONED.
I KNOW IM STRONG AND I CAN DO IT.
I GUESS I'VE DID IT PRETTY WELL.

REMIND QIANYU THAT SHE HAS TO FORGET EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN THAT PAST ONE YR. BE IT HAPPY OR SAD. THERE'S NOTHING TO CRY, YOU WILL NOT BE ANY PRETTIER. I MUST NOT BE BOTHERED, I CANNOT INTERFERE, I DONT WANT TO BE DISTRACTED AND AFFTECTED. EVERYTHING'S ENDED. NO POINT DREAMING ANY FURTHER YOU KNOW. CAUSE IN THE END, I GUESS NOBODY WILL PITY YOU.
AND NOW, ONLY YOU YOURSELF HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. NO MORE NONSENSE.

i'm supposed to my project anyway but i've got distracted.

2010-01-02T13:33:00.002+08:00

Well 2009's over. and i hope the coming year would be a better one
yes i know it will be.

that one year with K was nice, i just thought that sometimes we just couldn't take things for granted especially kindness. and now i know, even if this is a cold war period or whatsoever. its just rain after shine. everything will be alright. you were the love of my life. thanks for being there when my previous relationship gone bust and all. Thanks for being the ever so forgiving boyf for tolerating all my nonsense and crap. Maybe we have all had enough already, time to move on.

And now, i'm comtemplating my another chance of love. Should i or not? Thanks for those words, it really lightens my burden alot. and really, i will take it into consideration. You've been one nice guy, i just think that you derserve someone better. Afterall, i'm nothing.

my ever so wonderful sisters.Although we've drifted alot this past one year, but i know we make it a point to contact each other and get updated. Last long for your relationships, ya! i realised we alr always taking turns to get attached. tell me if they bully you,HAHAHA. ok see you soon. i know this year would be a better one for us. our overseas trip that we are looking forward for. and this past 10 years are not for nothing. AY and YX you are not forgotten.

i've been with clique for over the past 2 years. and everything was going on fine except the part where our group is left with only 6 people. for these other 5 wonderful girls, i really thank you all everything this past 1 year. i've guessed we grew closer. all the gossips and everything, to clothes to boys and even to our shitting time. never regretted. as for dilys,priska and joyce, thanks for being there too as part of the clique and still you are one of us. i know there are some misunderstandings and i know even if im willing to try to get close i will be labelled. but yes, i still like the year when all of us got together as one.

ok, there are more people whom i want to thank.
I JUST HOPE 2010 WILL BE THE YEAR FOR ME.
and i want all of us to get our love soooooooooooon

2009-12-30T13:59:00.002+08:00

I want and i need to get those unwanted thoughts out of my mind.
and why am i still getting so affected over what you did
its like, seriously i dont have to give a damn about everything
but i still chose to care.
i dont like myself being like that.
all i do everyday is to complain and complain but not acting against it
why am i still procrastinating

THIS IS REALLY THE TIME, WHEN I STARTED TO THINK I'M SUCH A BITCH AND I'M A SUPER LETDOWN TO MYSELF.
COME ON MAN, I KNOW I CAN DO A BETTER JOB.
LIFE SUCKS BUT I DONT CARE, I KNOW I CAN LEAD IT BETTER WITHOUT YOU.

tests marks are bad.
i dont wish for more, at least no Ds this time round(:

2009-12-28T00:18:00.003+08:00

The 5 years plan.
i will always be with you.

work today was OMG SUPER TIRING TTM.
and those cheeeeeeeeeeenapokkkkks.
they are damn irritating i swear.
okok enough of work

school's tmr, and im excited!
i cant wait to see my dearies.
my mind just can't stop thinking of non-existing things.

i want that inner voice to shut up seriously.
like what someone told me, its just a feeling
i have to be logical to decide for myself.
im lost too, i dont know how to be strong again
its like, i know the world's not tumbling down
but then, i just dont know how to accept the fact as yet
you still belong in my world.
but now, a different status.
we are just normal friends.
friends that could not even share passionate hugs and kisses
i do not know why do i still hesitate till now
since i've made up my mind, i should stop.
its just very difficult,
afterall we've been tgt through everything for nearly 400 days.
they are not for display purpose.
we've built it all up together and now everything was crashed.
damn it ok, seriously.

2009-12-22T16:23:00.003+08:00

I think im super timid to the maxxxxxxxxxxx la
omg, i like look down on myself a little
i can't even erase the things that doesn't belong to me anymore.
eh please, i have to do it ok.
and i know i must stop wasting time on all these.
my assignments are not yet done, my goodynesssssssssssssssss!
i want school to start soon like SERIOUSLY.
and anying, when are you going to come back huhuhuhuh?!
i miss you laaaaaaaaa.

and i thank you for all those times when you around to help me up when i fall;
but i guess i have to settle my feelings first before doing anything
unfair right i know.
sorry

tmr's straight 12 hours of work at clinic
and i seriously wish somone would sponsor me cab home.

2009-12-21T11:57:00.002+08:00

I KNOW I SHOULDNT HAVE KEPT THE RINGS.
EVERYTIME UPON SEEING THEM, I WOULD HAVE TO CONTROL MY FEELINGS.
I KNOW I HAVE TO BE STRONG
I CANNOT SHED A TEAR.
THIS ISNT THE ENDING IT SHOULD BE, I SHOULD RETURN THEM TO THE OWNER.
HAPPY ENDING RIGHT.
I WANT IT TO BE LIKE HOW I RECEIVED IT.
I'M FEELING MISERABLE ON THE INSIDE.
I THANK ALL THOSE WHO HAD ACCOMPANIED ME FOR THE PAST DAYS.
BUT WHEN IM ALL ALONE, EVERYTHING IS HAUNTING ME AGAIN.
I CANNOT LET MYSELF DOWN AGAIN
YES YOU ARE RIGHT, BREAKUPS ARE NOT JUST LIKE GAMES.
I CANNOT TURN BACK SINCE I'VE DECIDED.
I CANNOT CRY REALLY.
I CANNOT BE A FOOL ONCE AGAIN
I CANNOT LIE TO MYSELF
I CANNOT REGRET!

I HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE.
I NEED TO WAKE UP SERIOUSLY.

its just a failure of love, it doesn't mean that the world is ending
so i know i cannot let those who care for me disppointed.
I OUGHT TO BE HAPPPY.
CHEERUP YOU QY.

2009-12-20T10:53:00.002+08:00

The side effects kicked in after yesterday
i know this is just a moment of rashness for making things happening too fast.
but i know i cannot regret
i have to be strong
and im proud of myself, not letting any teardrop down
i need accompany, so i wont think so much
I CANNOT REGRET!
i have to live on with my life.
yes, damn it.
i know my life damn suck thats why you didnt even enjoy in the first place.
ok, i should change my blog soon.
i dont want to be contaminated with bad memories.
and i just need to be assured this is the right choice.

i thank you for giving your love and once again for entering my life
this 6 years have been hard on you.

2009-12-18T11:22:00.002+08:00

the picnic photos(:
i think i shall just upload a few.
its not that im lazy but the alcohol has not wear off.
im freaking having a headache laaaaaaaa.
but the feeling was damn good. i like!

clique love(:

i'm in a dilemma
can someone save me.
:(

and im damn sorry to hurt you, my good friend(:

2009-12-16T10:20:00.001+08:00

Sentosa today!
lets pray for th weather to be fine today
i will upload the picnic photos soon to blog.

2009-12-09T18:13:00.003+08:00

WHY DO I NOT HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO STUDY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LAST PAPER TMR.
OMGOMGOMG, ITS PICNIC YO(:

i cant wait seriously.
2 papers really make me super slack.

2009-12-09T02:26:00.004+08:00

i don't know what answer should i give

i just think that we could have spend more time tgt even if the tests are our priority.

cause we always make it a point to not neglect one another.

even now, walking home doesn't even gives us peace.

and then, something's really wrong.

are you doubting me or whatsoever, i really dont know

sometimes i think i've to let go and not be so possessive over you

but i guess, i've overestimated what i feel

cause i think the reasons you gave were disappointing enough to make me weep over them

i'm not angry over what you've did for anything

and pretty sure enough, i guess i've hoped too much

when i dont hope, i wont disappoint myself

i'll be honest with you.

but i do not know if you read my blog

im feeling like how you are feeling when we were on the verge of breaking up the other time.

i dont know how do i answer your questions, so both parties woudnt get hurt

so i chose to remain silent for everything

i hope you will forgive me on that.

and i did not regret getting back tgt.

at least we've tried and we know if we could be.

but just leave this till the tests end.

Well the talks are overrated

Am I saying how you feel?

So you end up watching chances fade

And wondering what's real

And I… get you just a little time

I wonder if you realize

I've been waiting 'til I see it in your eyes

2009-12-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

I didnt know i caused you to be even more unhappy
and when i ask you to take initiative, you did
i was grateful and more than happier
maybe i was wrong, and ok i really did the wrong choice.
you are really nice.
no awkward silence and everything
yes, you are doing good.
keep it up ok.
trust me, everything will be fine soon(:
dont blame yourself for everything
you live for yourself and not others, rmbr this.
i will be even more guilty if you are going to forsake yourself again.
you deserve better.

to:you

2009-12-06T03:56:00.003+08:00

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me that you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Lets just go back to the start

i'm totally drained out this few days.
everyday its just work study all.
omg, i need a break. POCKY!
and my motivation, why is it not coming.
freaky enough, i had this ulcer in my eye for the past few days.
yup, recovered from that bubble. HHAHAH
ok, i lost my vibe for blogging
i dont even know what i want to type.

I CAN ONLY SAY THESE FEW DAYS DAMN SUCK.
AND I ONLY GOT BLAME FOR EVERYTHING I'VE DID
WHY HAD NOBODY SEEN THE GOOD BUT THE BAD.
FORGET IT, THIS WHOLE WEEK I SHALL NOT UPSET MYSELF
I'M A HAPPY GIRL(:

i shall just update a few random photos.

hey girlfriends.
we must endure this week for that 2 impt dates.
after that, yesssssssss our thurs date out.
jiayou for all and special goodyluck to us(:

the rest of you taking exams.
HAHAH GOOD LUCK TOO

2009-12-04T10:15:00.001+08:00

THIS BLOG'S LIKE DEAD.
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I PROMISE I WILL REVIVE IT AFTER EXAMS I SWEAR.
WITH PICTURES OK!

2009-11-24T01:42:00.003+08:00

im feeling the worse right not.
its not they've checked on me but they invaded by freaking privacy.
omg, how would you feel.
dont make me turn things ugly.
if its that what you wanted.
im still going to carry on with my future plans

and term test is coming. zomg.
i want dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i've nothing to blog recently.
everything's just boring.
tellllll me about it man.

2009-11-18T21:32:00.002+08:00

you are the one who wants to start everything
comment on every shit i do.
and you said i was a pig.
communicating in my language, doesnt that make you some pig too.
and a fucking useless one i swear.
sorry i know we are freaking going to be in a group working on some project.
but please, jolly well go and reflect
you are the one who's being ostracized then dont talk so much
know where your status is.
so what if i look expanded now and last time.
then why do you still go to my profile and look at all these pictures.
means you are freaking interested in my face, you noobshit
i tell you, you are so going to be the second one to be blacklisted by me.
you are super anooying.
tell me about it, get a life la you moron
you are getting on everyone's nerves.
ya, im not going to comment on how you look
but just the way you are trying to show, you freaking cannot even be compared to a pig.
worse than that a million times.
you want to find me trouble.
come on man, dont be scared
you will be at the losing end.
LOSER!

2009-11-18T02:49:00.002+08:00

i'm glad everything's back on track after having so much drama just now
and thanks for being not mad at meeeeeeeeee.
im sorry dearest
i hope this will be the last time we are doing this.
and yes, as promised sentosa photos.
i will be fair and upload 1 photo(:
the rest are in fb.

2009-11-16T02:46:00.001+08:00

YEAAAAAAAAAAAA, ANGELA I MISS YOU OK.

SENTOSA AND SAKURA TODAY
DOUBLE BEST,
OH MAN, I CANT WAIT TO UPLOAD THE PHOTOS(:

2009-11-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

your promise to me,
i cherish

2 more days(:
LOVEEEEEEEYOU!

2009-11-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

i dont think anybody has been coming back to visit this place.
i know i have been neglecting my blog all this while.
but yes, i think i've lost the vibe for blogging.
i will get back on track soon ok.

anway, my sister is away for camp and i can't believe im saying this
i do miss her. HAHHAA
and only she will know why

i'm down with a flu and sore throat.
damn it, i want to enjoy this sun properly also cannot.
ok, im like dying.
my throat damn pain.

2009-11-09T02:32:00.001+08:00

ANOTHER TIRING DAY
macs with anna just now.
i held my breath till the very end
and when i could not control.
hahahha, she walked all the way back with me.
oh man, damn nice.
thanks yoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

I MISS MY ULTIMATE WONDER POWER HAPPY PILL(:

i'm too lazy to post photos here
i shall wait till next sun ya.

2009-11-06T18:28:00.002+08:00

i've neglected my blog like shit i know.
oh man, i feel damn guilty
and then, quiz is coming up. i've yet to study
everything's keeping me so busy everyday till i'm lost about my daily routine.

i know i shouldn't be pissed with you
but at that point when i'm impulsive, i really can't bothered with those explanations.
i almost fainted i guess when i dehydrate like shit.
damn worried you can't give it on time.
but after a while, i realised that i was so worried and everything cause i am bothered with what you are doing that affects me.
ok, i should learn to have higher tolerance lvl i guess.
and i hope i did a good job of it.
i'm starting to miss you
and next sun, im so looking forward.
i hope, i wish and i know it will be a success.

I CAN'T WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
photos up next time when i'm free.

2009-11-05T21:38:00.002+08:00

ADVETISEMENT FOR YANMING'S CRITERIA AS HER BOYF.
this guy has to dress up like zac efron with torn converse shoes and plain white tee with slim fit pants.
so you guys better dress like that if you want to attract her attention.

a wonderful day out with boyf.
i hope everything just remains like the present.
after the break, i guess everything was so much more perfect.
i love and i've never regretted(:

2009-11-02T00:25:00.003+08:00

photos of halloween camp.

http://gickr.com/results2/anim_4affe6ca-fb3f-6bf4-059f-171c4cb8736c.gif

i forgotten to take my own photo.
so stupid

yanming, time to lose weight!

i won't give up that easily,
cause you are my best love dino boy.

i know contradictions kicked in alot
but ya, my stand is firm
i'm going to make you feel like how you dreamt initially.

2009-11-01T09:42:00.003+08:00

I remembered those times when we got ourselves drunk dead,
hiding ourselves under the blanket
and cuddling each other to sleep.

i really wish that what i've been dreaming for would come true.
i don't want to wait anymore.
i want to have you now.
Really.

just one last chance will do and i don't know how but only to cherish everything that has to do with you.

everyone's sick of me posting those long wordy entries
spare them with all those, and let me have of all those that we've been through once again
and then, no more emoshitxz.

2009-10-31T23:53:00.002+08:00

i've regretted
i want to wait no more
tired already
i've tried all the methods i could.
and still, the results are the same.
why do i have to let the ppl around me to feel the heartache too.
i hate this serious

CAMP WAS GREAT!
cause i know awesome people.
but im not going to blog the photos anytime soon

TONGUE PIERCING SOOOOOOOOOON.
CAN'T WAIT YO.

2009-10-30T00:07:00.004+08:00

you must know how i feel for you
even after a week, i just couldn't help and went to find you
i know i'm dumb and should move on whatever
but then, how can i possibly forget all the things that we did

i really hope there's this one last chance waiting.
even if its a tryout, i will treasure every sec of it
cause the company is you
and i wish, you feel the sincerity in me

you are hesitating for a choice
will we quarrel like all the time in the future again?
let me tell you this, we can avoid those quarrels if we compromise.
and i know we really can
dont be afraid to try again, cause you will never know until you succeed.
and denying me a chance to try it,
its making the both of us suffer only.

now i know the point of drinking when you are sad
and the feeling sucks much
im running a temperature now.
tell me about it

2009-10-27T18:27:00.002+08:00

MJ'S BIRTHDAY WAS A BLAST.
SOMETHING DIFFERENT THIS YEAR.
AND I HOPE YOU LIKE IT.
LASTLY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i'm waiting for more photos to be sent.
ok, i want to be busy with clothes now.
byeeeeeee.

2009-10-27T00:57:00.002+08:00

PLEASE GO AND ASK MISS YANMING,
HOW SHE PRONOUNCE AWESOME.
A-WE-SOMMMME.HAHAHHAA(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAOJIE!
MINGJING'S TURN FINALLY(:

2009-10-26T18:04:00.002+08:00

06.Èç¹ûÎÒ±ä³É»ØÒä - Tank

this is a song from my friend's blog

and if i really became your memory...
play this and read at the same time

Obviously my heart has not given up.
its still dreaming with me.
i know its impossible already,
but just let me dream a little more
so it won't hurt so much

all those things that we did
all the places that we went
all the quarrels and happy memories that we have been through together are nonetheless sweet

i know its damn stupid of me living in such denial waiting for you to carry me in your arms and giving me a pat on my head.
i can only act strong and pretend nothing had happened in front of my friends.
it's not that i'm not treating them as the best now
but i guess some things are best kept in silent.
thanks all for your words but i know it myself.
i am just stubborn to accept it.

for now, all this will be in history.
i know whatever i do will not gain back your love
so i won't waste my time anymore.
i will try doing the things that we've wanted to did together
and reverting back to my old self
but this time round not for that glimpse of hope and just to gain back confidence in myself
i know i can do it

i have so many things to tell you
but will you still be there to listen to me?
currently, i dont know how i should face you
i can only learn how to avoid and taking everything by stride.

i dont know whats the sudden change when its like an excuse
we can always compromise and talk nicely.
but it doesn't seem that way anymore
maybe your feelings had faded
or maybe im not pretty to you anymore
i really dont know
this one yr is really great to have you around
i will keep you in a dark corner of my heart and you will be my very good friend(:

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我本
来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我

i thank you, my boyfriend.
i think its really time for me to give up and carry on with my life
but i believe in that 5 yrs promise, really.

i think i've spent quite long typing this
my tears kept blurring my vision.

and now, i think i'm starting to get back on track
but still my health is getting from bad to worse
my heart problems are returning to me
i'm having stomach upsets every now and then
my appetite has become smaller each day.
i want to eat more but nvm, idk why.
good way to lose weight
but don't learn, its wrong
cause exercise is still the most practical way(:
[i've learnt already:)]

2009-10-24T15:50:00.002+08:00

It's been so long that i've been so depressed.
i've been trying many ways just to get back.
and even the ex convicts got their chances back
what about mine,
i need someone to enlighten me.

2009-10-24T12:16:00.004+08:00

i don't understand this
i had stopped eating since ytd
and why am i still puking all over
and the cold sweat just kept dripping
the fever is just as stubborn as me.
is this like my retribution or something?

BUT ULTMIATELY, I'VE LOST 3KG(:

ok, it's damn damn damn torturing.

2009-10-22T18:23:00.002+08:00

thanks girl for today.
*ignore my eyes

When your mind says give up, hope says one more try

2009-10-22T14:40:00.004+08:00

i'm confused over what you've said
and i'm super duper tired over what i'm going through.
so i will just smile and pass my day happily.
maybe i'm just not the same someone whom you've known for the past years.
you've changed as well.
ya, people do change and isn't it better to live in a beautiful lie rather than you waking up being pessismistic all the time. ok thats totally no link.
and so, people do change and make mistakes.
sometimes, the mistakes that you've committed are just hard to accept and forgive.
i'm getting affected over small things you do and say thats cause there's love.
i'm not sure if its mutual, but for me i definitely never regret not forgiving you those times when i'm pissed. and cause, i want you to know that you are important.
but whatever, guys and girls always think differently.
so no matter how much i tried to address my point of view, its redundant.
i didnt know that meeting me would tire you out so badly.
then be straightforward and tell me.
whatever i've said are not important to you,
cause you think that they are not pleasing to the ears?
and cut those crap about you just playing overboard.
don't ever deny that you have a little interest in her.
i admit she's kind of cute but i think i didn't lost to her too.
if you don't have the interest, then in the first place why do you talk to her for?
just say that she caught your attention, beloved eyecandy.
i'm not countering you in whatever i said.
yes, i like to boss around.
then what about those times when you asked me to go over your place, are those like not in sight?
when we are outside, i gave you face.
i tried my best not to show any attitude to you.
but still, what i get. ppl scolding me having some dog face over one mistake.
please man, whatever i do its always wrong.
spare a thought for me can.
i've always tried ways to improve[ok maybe my attitude just suck], but still i will never reach your ideal target.
sorry then, my fault.
ya thats all i know that i can say.
and when you tell me face to face about me neglecting your work, you wont know how much pain i've received k.
then those times when i planned surprises, what are all those?
and its not that i've ever wanted to compare the sacrifices we've made for each other but just maybe i deserve a little better?
ok, maybe i dont.

continue later.
my eyeballs are drowned.
they need to breathe

i'm just saying but i wont do it.
why is it that hard to get over somethings which i must forget.
damn it, i hate the world.
i can jolly well go die.
Bye

OK, ALL THESE ARE FREAKING IMPORTANT!
dino: You will always be with me
i am willing to do whatever u wan me too. and im willing to forget all those
miss me: Dun liddat k? I know we will forgive each other. ilu.
Zy: Cheer up babe. not always there for u sorry.

2009-10-20T21:54:00.003+08:00

just a post before the short hiatus

Just when i've decided to give you a plus point,
everything was just so wrong.
ya sorry, i promise i won't let you neglect your work again.
let's not meet till you finish your deadlines.

yixin's birthday was awesome.
and i met new friends and i like them(:

the rest are found in her facebook.

i know this photo looks retarded
but i think the effects are damn cool
i just hate to pause for minutes taking photos.
then, i shall start shaking my heads.
high on drugs.hahha

NEXT FRI IS THEEEEEEEEEEEE HALLOWEEN CAMP!
SO SEXCITEDDDDDDDDD(:

2009-10-19T22:39:00.001+08:00

first day of school was great.
i think i don't have the vibe for blogging anymore
maybe i will go on a short hiatus for now.
but still, you must come back and visit regularly k!
(:

2009-10-15T16:43:00.001+08:00

NO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY!
HAHAHAHHA
SOMEONE'S JEALOUS BIG TIME.

2009-10-13T01:47:00.003+08:00

I'm having mixed feelings

²Â²»Í¸ - ÕÅÉØº

i'm sad, really.

2009-10-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

i have the sudden urge to fly to bangkok right away. like now...

this is only the book cover for my blog.
the contents will be posted somewhere else.
i need some privacy thats it.

2009-10-09T01:56:00.002+08:00

我要快乐wo yao kuai le - 张惠妹

2009-10-06T19:45:00.001+08:00

Since nobody cares
this should be the way

yes, dont be bothered with me
im just a nuisance in your life

2009-10-05T01:39:00.005+08:00

so much happened today during work
and just one sentence for that gucci freak,
screw you bitch, i've worked 4 hours for nothing
so lowdown of you. ok, maybe your gucci was fake afterall.

im just scolding to make myself feel better(:

i held my anger down all the way after work
i admit i was super guailan today but i dont care
ivy was nice to be my companion the whole day(:

after work, dearest waited for like an hour for me.
i am sorry, seriously
but i treated you food
and ok, i've forgotten everything temporaily and OMG
I THINK IM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ON EARTH TODAY
CAUSE I TRRRRRRRRIED AND POOOMISE. HHAHHA

ok, rest well now you qianyu.
sorry, i know its abrupt

2009-10-04T02:14:00.004+08:00

SPARKLES. OMG DAMN IT, THEY SUPER CHIO CAN.
i need to sleep soon after uploading the photos
im freaking tired.

and the aftermath;

i concluded i have short hands seriously
i cannot take photos properly with another person beside me
hahah, OR RATHER MY FACE IS TOO BIG FOR THE CAM.
I THINK I WILL STICK WITH NO.1 CHOICE(:

2009-10-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

MY HAIR REMINDED ME OF TWISTER FRIES.

2009-10-01T22:12:00.005+08:00

" i don't know what to blog about, everything seems the same."

KEAGAN SNG SAYS, " SAY I PIG!"
haha, i can't imagine you wearing this i swear.

everything doesn't matter as long as i get to see your smile.

2009-09-30T22:19:00.006+08:00

i still love the moment you teases me all the time best;
and i wish for a time machine.
why am i still waiting for your call
i shall go and sleep now
hopefully i can meet you in your dreams(:

i think my zebra prints flipflops are nice.

2009-09-30T05:08:00.002+08:00

LZ:
i thank lizhen for using her yuan shi way to present her sincerity.
thanks so much.HAHHAHA
see you around in school ok.
it feels a little weird to say love you.
ya k, take care(:

I'M DEAD BEAT.

2009-09-25T10:55:00.004+08:00

what you are telling me now,
is to not salvage the situation and let it pass

how can you take things that easily.
nvm, i guess it doesn't work the one sided way
i dont want you to feel irritated about me too

somehow i feel indifferent now.
do you get what i mean?
i still feel that you are around me
ok, im not suppose to live in denial

Bye.

2009-09-25T03:16:00.004+08:00

i thank everyone for their wishes and gifts.
i've made the same 3 wishes for the 3 birthday cakes.
hopefully it comes true.

and certain people that i'm grateful of,

K:
i know things didn't turn out well
but i'm just going to take things by stride
and hopefully, you will still treat me as your good friend
update me more about any hot girls you've seen ok!
thanks for all those you've gave unconditionally.
really thanks alot(:

ANNA:
hahha, thanks so much for accompanying me at ym's house just now
i know you dont like singing, but hey thanks ah
birthday girl biggest.
and then, thanks so much for talking to me
I SEE THE LIGHT!
ok, meet you tmr for carrotcake.
we shall eat more and become fishballs once again(:

YANMING:
my ultimate girlfriend.
i thank you so much for lending me your room
and singing in the middle of the night is a blast.
more k sessions ya.
and i guess we became closer
don't always think that i'm crying
I'LL SMILE ALWAYS.
and for the very first time, you said i love you.
omg, thats damn sweet ok.
thank yooooooooooo
i love you also(:

ANYING:
THE LAST AND MOST IMPORTANT PERSON OF ALL.
I SHALL TYPE ALL IN CAPS.
I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXXXXXXX.
THANKS FOR STANDING BY ME ALTHOUGH I LOOK DAMN CUI WHEN I WENT OUT WITH YOU WITH THE PANCAKES BELOW MY EYES.AHAHHA
YOU MADE ME SMILE THE WHOLE DAY TOTALLY
AND PLUS, WHINING AT YOU WITHOUT EVEN HAVING YOU SCOLDING ME.
HAHHA, WE SHOULD SAVE AND GO BKK SOON
FASTER FINISH YOUR As AND WE CAN GO OUT MORE.

ok this post is super random.
wo yao shui jiao leeeeeeee.
my eyes are freaking puffy like muah chee.

2009-09-24T10:48:00.002+08:00

hanging on for that wish i've made on my first birthday cake.
will it really come true?
that happy birthday recording made me cry non stop
i thank you so much for making this 18th birthday the best.
so much for liking the song and it really did come true.
will taking back your words really hurt so much?

×£ÎÒÉúÈÕ¿ìÀÖ - ÎÂá°

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面
手机~让它休息一夜
难~想切歌切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐~ 我对自己说
蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也溶了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你~带一点恨
还要时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕画面重生
祝我生日~快乐

2009-09-23T10:58:00.003+08:00

photo talks.
omgggg, i can't wait for the surprise at dearest's house later(:

i know i look awful in this series tooo.
cause im sick.
ok im going to stop finding excuses, im just plain ugly.

the day out with anying and the ugly truth, AWESOME!

AND HAPPY 18TH TO ME(:
another 13 more hours coming its wayyyy!

2009-09-23T00:55:00.002+08:00

just back with anying not long ago.
these 3 days are prolly busy days for me which are good.
cause i dont like to be left alone
i dont know what is arranged for me but i guess they are the best.

the bkk trip photos that anying finally updated
hhaha! ok, good luck for your exams tmr ya
and our jump next wed. yessssssssss
plus, im damn in love with going out with her i swear.

these photos are going to make you change your opinion of me greatly.

texting dearest(:

in the planeeeeeeeeeee

this is freaking nice la omg.

i look damn cui in those photos cause they are taken early in the morning like 4am
should really buy the bras there, they are freaking comfortable. hahaha
and i love our hearty specs damn cool.
we bargained like aunties for that ok!
i need to rest for my day tmr
GOODYNIGHTY!

2009-09-22T11:48:00.002+08:00

out with anying.
omggg, im so damn excited.
cause different surprises make me happy everyday.

AND PLUS GRACE, IM GOING TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD IM TURNING 18 IN 2 DAYS TIME.HAHAH. AND YOU BETTER TAKE NOTE CAUSE IM IMPORTANTTT OK!

i've changed my no. to a temporary one.
so if you want to know, mail me k!
or get it from my loves.hahah

2009-09-20T04:40:00.001+08:00

i'm terribly sick

can someone show some care please?

my voice has changed

I'M DAMN IN LOVE WITH MY SEXY VOICE(:

2009-09-17T02:32:00.002+08:00

the 16th(:
i really hope time could standstill and continue like this to the end.

although it was not a very happy start at 12 midnight, i was having mixed feelings about continuing this. and then, i saw the reassurance again in you and thats when i teared incontinuously. you held my hands and told me that you will never ever want to leave but its just the quarrels that we were having are tearing you apart. i didnt want it to happen too but you must know its a part of life that we have to go through. yes, i've been complaining that im not happy with this and that which somehow i think i neglect your feelings a little. but seriously, you must know its just myself that im not pleased with and it happens that i vent my anger on you sometimes. but most of the times, i have a valid reason to be pissed with you.

woke up in the morning and wanted to go out alone.
in the end, i was too fickle minded about what i should wear and so i didnt.
but i managed to get your favourite dessert that you longed for a year ago
ok i know its abit long. HHAHA
i was damn relief to know that you are happy with the surprise that you thought i've always treat those as passing remarks.
then, yes LONG BEACH. OMGOODYNESSSSSSSS!
THE CHILLI CRAB. AHHHHHHHHHHH
I WANT DIE,ITS SUPER NICE I SWEAR.
then then, was gforce 3d.
ok im not a animation fan but the show was good.
but its damn stupid wearing that specs shit throughout the whole movie.
overall i would rate the day:9
CAUSE I'VE FORGOTTEN TO SAY I LOVE YOU TO DEAREST BEFORE I LEFT.
thats damn spoiler i know.hahahha

damn it i cannot upload the photo.
but anway, its damn nice.hahhaa

okok i need to rest for work soon.
GOODYNIGHTY.

6 more days!

2009-09-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

ok i dont hope for any As in the exams anyway
but whatever, i've passed all.OMG
like totally unbelievable.
i thought i need to save the project for next sem sub retake.
OK, THANK GOD.
SERIOUSLY, IM DAMN HAPPY.

and the second craziest thing i did today,
MY PHONE'S NOT NAKED NOW.
i hate blings alot but i just tried and now my phone look damn cheena
nvm i think its nice.
and ITS PINK,LIKE HAHAHHA
TOTALLY DONT SUIT ME.

ok, i've no mood to blog again
maybe tomorrow or sth
i want to k soon.
yanming, faster confirm with me hor.

2009-09-10T01:29:00.002+08:00

i've said my piece.
i hope you will understand and let's continue with this
all those are in the history.
let not rake it up anymore and have a fresh start
afterall, its not good to be sad all the time.

should i get a second job or spend more time on myself?

i wish to sing this duet with you one day(:
please fulfil my wish.

¸´¿Ì»ØÒä - Ñ¦¿ç÷

窗外的树爱哭的风
烦恼的我聪明的你
爱是什麽什麽人懂
所以别难过
心还痛吗请忘了吧
所谓幸福是个童话
後来的我一切随意
所以没关系
在不同的城市努力
偶尔也会想想你
这样的我那样的你
要很久才相聚
我们都没说那遥远的曾经
我们也没提故事的原因
青春的复刻回忆像一片云
没法子抓在手里
我们的眼泪在复习着过去
我们的微笑是彼此的氧气
复刻的回忆是封挂号信
多远都可以找到你

as continued from my previous post
bangkok was fun with anying around
i know we had a little unhappiness but we got over it quickly.
the second day was much of a enjoyable one
i should take a shot of how happy she was when she got her rainbow maxi for 100 baht.
and we got our shoes for 5 bucks each.
heyhey, our date in dec.
and citin hotel's the best
their service and everything plus the room was awesome
free internet access ahhhhhh.
so much for advertising for them. but really its damn nice
they dont even mind being our bodyguards at night.
HAHHAHA.
almost all details here.
i think pictures serve better purposes.
anying, send me soon ya.

2009-09-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

i entered this page and hestitate to blog.
i think i shall do it tomorrow.

2009-09-08T00:30:00.002+08:00

OH MAN, I SWEAR BANGKOK IS DAMN COOL.
WE SPENT SHOPPING ALL THE PLACES IN JUST 2 DAYS
(:
(:

2009-09-06T00:31:00.002+08:00

macs later at 4am
BKK IN A FEW HOURSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS TIME.
IM LOVING IT.

suddenly i feel that im super selfish
i didnt care about those who really cared for me.
and when they express their love, i swear my heart melted
i dont know what to say
but i can only say thank you.
i love you, daddy mummy.

and my wonder power sister,
she's damn sweet ok.
squeezing everything for me to let me carry lesser things on hand.
super cute can.
oh man, i dont know what to say

to my dearest,
you just direct yourself to your blog.
i've wrote something there.
hopefully it will be in use this 2 days.

i know im going only for 2 days and im such a nag
but you know im going to miss homeeeeeeeeeeee!
over there, we can only rely on ourselves.
yes, we will protect each other.
those chikopeks can go die.HAHHA

ok, time for me to nap a while.
i feel love around the world coming back to me(: